hope/fear

A message exchange regarding my Facebook status change to “Rachel is HOPE NOT FEAR HOPE NOT FEAR HOPE NOT FEAR.

J: “your status is the same as the phrase of my mantra over the last year or so….i really do have to repeat it to myself out loud sometimes. one time, in a particularly freaky freak-out, i wrote ‘unafraid’ on the inside of my wrist with a permanent marker…

everything ok?”

ME: “Yes, okay. We’re always broke, which wears on a person and keeps stalling us in weird and frustrating spots. It wears on us and I can’t help but feel like it’s a burden on our families and the people around us.

People, like people I love and am friends with, are doing things like calling a decent politician with a good hopeful message (who happens to be a believer) a terrorist in order to try to elect someone who is pro-life/is Republican/plays on their fears. That wears on me. Those are two things. Hope, not Fear, is sort of Obama-esque (Obamian?), I think, it’s part of the zeitgeist of the times, but I have to remind myself that nothing changes for us, that message is the message of Jesus really, and is why it resonates so much, I just have to keep going as if the road is going to be under my feet. So it goes.”